Remembering Mom
Today is one of many firsts that will come up in the next year. First birthday to not send a card and call to wish her a happy birthday. I have been anticipating this day with some dread. So far it has gone okay. Made it through church okay. We normally go to the early contemporary service and sometimes there are songs that will bring tears. Today we didn't sing any of those except maybe one, but in a way they were more more joyful tears because the song is about Jesus coming for us and praying that he will come soon. I remember one time Mom telling me that when she went, she said to be happy for her. And I am happy for her just knowing and thinking about the wonder and awe that she is experiencing. But as I write this the tears still come, because I miss her and think about her every day. We went with several neighbors for lunch today and tonight we are also going to be gone with some folks from church. It does help to take my mind off things. Love you Mom!
three comments:
I know what you mean about the songs. The first Sunday after the funeral we sang How Great Thou Art and What A Friend We Have In Jesus. They are songs that bring tears but also joy. I am happy for her too but I miss her so much!
Linda () - 14 09 08 - 16:09
And I had tears as I read your message. It will get easier.
Paul () - 14 09 08 - 17:50
After reading all the blogs tears are flowing. I guess we are selfish. Mom had been ready for a long time to go but we werent ready to let here go. I guess time will heal all wounds.
Ron () - 15 09 08 - 13:46
